Growing up in Connecticut and being a UCONN Husky, the month of March meant one thing “March Madness”. Annually the NCAA Basketball Championship Tournament is held and the event is referred to as “March Madness”.
Lately I find myself dealing with my own March Madness. There is so much I “want” to do (dreamer), so much I “have” to do (responsible one) and the random “surprises” that pop up that need immediate fixing or saving (hero).
If I were honest this is nothing new. The specific wants, needs and surprises have changed over the years, however the roles have been quite similar, with maybe a few more added in just to keep life interesting.
I love to dream, to look at things differently, to be creative. I love waking up early (before the alarm clock) when the house is quiet and hear with more than just my ears. That is when my dreamer thrives most. I see potential. I am bright eyed and optimistic. Fresh ideas and new perspectives shine. Always too soon, the alarm sounds and life begins.
I awaken from my dreamer state to start my day. I have people who are depending on me, my responsibilities rise just as I do. I grew up the eldest child (textbook typical) and from a very young age, like it or not, I was the responsible one. Over the years I have embraced it, triumphed because of it, fallen flat on my face and resented it. While it could seem overwhelming at times, somewhere in the depths of my being I enjoy it. I know this. It is familiar, drives me to be better and that in it’s own way is comfortable.
As life may have it a “crisis” or two arise. Whatever dreams that were hatching or tasks that were necessary must be set aside. Immediately I put on my cape and go to action. I love being a superhero. I need to remember this when later I become upset that the dreams haven’t yet manifested or the items on my to-do list haven’t been checked off.
When the frustration of my delayed dreams arise, the stress of mom and boss days seem almost too much to bear, or the moments of loss are heavy when I realize I can’t always save the day, I remember these roles in my life serve me and help me grow.
This is the beat that I “March” to, this is My “Madness”, finding the balance between the inspired dreamer, the responsible business owner dedicated mother/spouse and the superhero/ problem solver. I embrace them all. When they work together they support one another and work in harmony, my “madness” crescendos into the most glorious song of my life. Without one of these my life song just wouldn’t sound the same.
So when you are feeling overwhelmed, take a moment to reflect on the roles in your life. What do they provide? How do they support you and how do you support them? It may feel a bit like madness from time to time ~ that is just a reminder to find your harmony, your life song and dance.
Happy March, embrace your “Madness”
Rosie
